"FALL"ing downwards: Month of October

Hi everyone.  Happy Halloween!  I finally have the time and the drive to write this blog because honestly, I have been stressing lately and I haven't had the motivation to complete anything in my life.  The ending of this month has just been abundant in stress, in comparison to the beginning.  As you know, the beginning of October was when the retreat took place, and yes, that was very relaxing, until Fall Break had ended.  Stress.  Stress.  Stress.  First of all, school is stressful. Although this year feels like the easiest year I had so far, man.. I am slacking!!  Regarding grades, oh my goodness, I just got my report card right now and I have ONE DANG B from the class that I love the most and the subject that I find so simple: AP Literature.  I don't know why, but I feel like my teacher this year doesn't like the way I write because last year, my teacher enjoyed my writing.  It's whatever.  But school has been stressful because there is so much today but such little time to do anything.  And now, there is college.  I applied to five colleges in one night last week because I had only realized that most of these colleges were early action, and two of these colleges' deadline is on November 1st (haha, tomorrow).  So last week, I went on this whole streak of answering college applications...  and honestly, college applications are simple, but there are so many aspects to complete that alotting the time to do so is difficult when you are an avid procrastinator (no, not AVID.. avid.. meaning that you are active in something).  Anyway, after sending in my applications, I had only realized that I need to send an OFFICIAL transpcript, along with OFFICIAL test scores... and the college and career center is responsible for that.  So here I am scrambling away so that I could get these transcripts in on time and hope that I didn't pay $200 of application fees for nothing.  Crossing my fingers.. but dang, I was stressing last week.  Other than school and college, allow me to say that I am proud of myself for deleting most of the social media apps on my phone, ahhaa.  I deleted Facebook, Snapchat, Twitter, and only to be left with Instagram.  It is great, but I still do not get how I dont complete things.  Oh yeah, and Tennis. YES, they have finally resurfaced our courts!  Meaning that we have new, fresh courts to play on and we won't have to slip anymore!!  And yeah, that is basically my month.. lol, I am so lame.  Speaking of lame and something even more lamer, I work today.. on Halloween.  I find it sad that I don't have the Halloween spirit anymore.. but hopefully Ill be able to rejuvenate it sometime in my life.

As you can see, this whole blog was literally about stress, school, college, and work. If you are in middle school, I highly advise you to enjoy your childhood and enjoy the privileges you have.  You think middle school is hard?  Heck, you are learning in the Hawaii state education system, which is nothing compared to the mainland, and middle school is nothing compared to high school.  Hence why I am pretty apprehensive for college because if I do go to a mainland school, my knowledge is equivalent to nothing...  you may think Im smart, but I'm not.  Moreso, STOP PROCRASTINATING.  Stop the bad habit now, for it will haunt you for the rest of your life.  Make good decisions and do good things for yourselves and the future.  Hopefully this stress will subside and I get my life togehter because I still have yet to apply to my number one school, University of Washington (due on November 15).  Sigh.  I hope you all are doing well, and just know that when you are stressing or annoyed or depressed, everything will get better.  See yall next month.  And Happy Halloween!  (Pls excuse my typos bc I am typing this blog in class and on my phone lol).